ABCs of Life by Donny Kaye

It seems that life is about mastery. In my mind, Mastery is not to be confused with perfection but rather the ability to actually experience life as it presents, moment-by-moment. Mastery connotes experiencing life effortlessly, without resistance and in the spirit of surrender. By surrender, I am not suggesting submission or irresponsibility.

There was a time when I experienced life in a very black and white manner, with little tolerance at all for the shades of gray that constitute actually living life as it presents. My personality needed knowledge and control to assure me that I was on some predetermined “single” pathway.

There is a part of me that would like to believe that life can be guided by a list such as The ABC’s of Life, however; my experience suggests that about the time I master A, B and C, life requires guidance from X, Y and Z!

If I were to create such a list, the wise one within would begin with ALLOWANCE. As I use the term allowance, I’m not thinking of the seventy-five cents a week for taking out the trash or cleaning off the dishes nightly from the dinner table. Allowance is a pre-requisite of being able to meet life’s challenges just as they present. Allowance is a way of looking at my life events not as obstacles to getting what I want but rather as stepping stones. Allowance cultivates trust. Trust that everything that appears appears as it must. Trust that comes through the experience of allowance, allows for certain things to fall away from my life as well as for certain things to come into my life.

The B in A, B, C, is just that, be! Being is about cultivating a capacity to be present to what is. Being allows for an informed response to what is, rather than the experience of constantly reacting with either agreement or disagreement. The constant reaction to what appears begins to lessen and a true sense of wonder serves as the lens for viewing life’s experiences.

Change is constant, becomes another critical aspect for me in understanding life. I have found that when I am able to surrender to the changes that are life, I am better able to stop resisting and instead, allow what life’s experiences bring to me. Change is constant! What must I do to create the ability to remain flexible in my thinking and my actions? To allow and be, requires flexibility and surrender to the realization that change is inevitable.

My years of experience in this lifetime, and quite possibly, previous life times, make the development of a full list, A-Z daunting and perhaps impossible to create. As an educator, I remember using excerpts with my staff from the book, Everything I Needed to Know, I Learned in Kindergarten.

As I look back on that listing of essential learning from kindergarten, I am reminded of the following ABC’s of Life, by Robert Fulghum:

• Share everything.
• Play fair.
• Don't hit people.
• Put things back where you found them.
• Clean up your own mess.
• Don't take things that aren't yours.
• Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
• Wash your hands before you eat.
• Flush.
• Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
• Live a balanced life - learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.
• Take a nap every afternoon.
• When you go out in the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands and stick together.
• Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup: the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.
• Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup - they all die. So do we.

Everything you need to know is in this list of ABC’s somewhere.

And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned - the biggest word of all - LOOK.

LOOK! I must develop my capacity to witness my life, without bias or expectation, and always with a sense of Wonder for what is. Realizing that “what is” is precisely the life event that is needed for a certain life lesson.

I am not suggesting a naive or Pollyannaish outlook on life but the creation of a life which when viewed by the witness within is viewing the life experience with clarity, through a lens which does not distort, nor color everything as rose colored glasses might.

In David Whyte’s poem, “No Path”, he states in his opening line, “There is no path that goes all the way. Not that it stops us from looking for the full continuation.” To exist with an expanded sense that there is no one way, be it right or even direct, but the experience of life from the perspective that everything belongs is entirely possible and practical.

About the Author

Donny Kaye-Is a native born Denverite. He has lived his life posing as a hetero-sexual male, while always knowing that his sexual orientation was that of a gay male. In recent years he has confronted the pressures of society that forced him into deep denial regarding his sexuality and an experience of living somewhat of a disintegrated life. “I never forgot for a minute that I was what my childhood friends mocked, what I thought my parents would reject and what my loving God supposedly condemned to limitless suffering.” StoryTime at The Center has been essential to assisting him with not only telling the stories of his childhood, adolescence and adulthood but also to merely recall the stories of his past that were covered with lies and repressed in to the deepest corners of his memory. Within the past two years he has “come out” not only to himself but to his wife of four decades, his three children, their partners and countless extended family and friends. Donny is divorced and yet remains closely connected with his family. He lives in the Capitol Hill Community of Denver, in integrity with himself and in a way that has resulted in an experience of more fully realizing integration within his life experiences. He participates in many functions of the GLBTQ community.