Monday, December 28, 2015

Compulsion, by Ray S


Let’s see, where do I start? And for that matter does anyone care?

Answer: Well I do, or I wouldn’t spend the moment to write about it and let you know how my roommate and I had the be-Jesus scared out of our innocent little WASPish souls.

Late springtime in central Florida where our school was lost on some country crossroads. As soon as dinner time was over, everyone returned to their dormitories to do assigned homework and then lights out at 9:30.

“Hey Billy, they said at dinner announcement time that those students who wished to could attend a tent meeting—something called a revival. We just needed to sign up with Mr. Butler. Do you want to go? I don’t know what they do, but they sing all those goofy church songs like Brighten the Corner, In the Garden, and Jesus Loves Me. Stuff we never did when I was home.

It wasn’t a difficult choice to make; we could be excused from homework. So began our big adventure into the world of being born again. Trouble with that idea was that as two fourteen year olds we had never known our moms didn’t already do the job once. Did they leave a part out and these folks could fix it for you? I wondered if they could repair my Ranger two-wheeler; make hair grow on my chest.

The tent was full of people stomping and crying and waving their hands, and some were even dancing—which was not allowed at the school. And it sure was awful hot in that tent.

Billy and I slipped inside, by the rows of chairs with their swinging and swaying occupants, close to the tent wall and tried to disappear. I had never seen people in this state except that time my big brother took me to the movies to see “Reefer Madness.”

The singing stopped and the people sank into their chairs. Then a big man dressed in a white suit, a little black string time with beads of perspiration running down his forehead began shouting something about hellfire and brimstone—whatever that was.

We both started to wonder why we were here and what had we gotten ourselves into. And how could we escape? When several ladies all dressed in flowing white dresses—sort of like angels I guess—passed among the crowd holding out little baskets. Then they all sang a song and swayed a lot.

The big man cried out for all the little ones to come forward to receive the word. We tried to shrink into the tent wall. This was all so different and now we were being compelled to participate in an activity totally foreign to anything we had ever learned.

They made us kneel down and mumbled something. Then we were pushed aside to make room for more lambs being led to whatever. At this point Billy and I found an opening in the crowd and headed for the tent entrance.

Once into the cool evening breeze, heavy with the scent of orange and grapefruit blossoms, our familiar world came into focus and we had escaped from the clutches of hellfire and brimstone. The experience being such that if that is the way Jesus loves you, we politely declined. Stick with God is Love.

In more recent days when we are sometimes blessed with our own reasoning, I acknowledge any number of compulsive actions—some bad and some really great, at least at the time.

But ever since that formative religious compulsion, I have learned to think for myself and find my own direction to “salvation,” if that is on the timetable. All ashore who are going ashore!

© 9 November 2015 

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